Please, If You Would Give Me Some Thoughtful Advice.?

was the day we got married but that was the ceramony May 23rd but ervyone thinks its was May 23rd is the date that we got married. Anyway back to the crazy stuff so the respect that I had for her cousin dropped because I was unaware of him and that was sick to me.
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Let me start by telling you this I am a 24 year old young man, I was homeless in December of 2008. I went to a salvation army to try to get some help. I walked in to get the help and this is what happened. A women in her mid-40′s called me back to her office, she said a comment I believe she said I would be glad to help you in a way that was flirtatious. I then sat in her office and begun to tell her about my homeless situation. I told her that I was battling with drug addiction and that that was the main reason why I was in this situation. She worked diligently to provide help to me in a caring way. I received 1 day in a hotel and 2 meals to soothe my appetite which did’nt really helped me but I was thankful for that. Before I left her office which was on a friday, she told me to come back Monday so she could further assist me. So Monday rolls around, and I step into her office and she begun to tell me that she was going to do everything that she could to help me, I was excited that someone actually started to give a dame. So she tried to get a hold of people she knew to help me. Then to my surprise she told me to load my things into her van and at 3:00 she would take me to get help. So we left at 3:00 I asked where we were going and she said that she is going to take me to her place until she could find a place for me to go. We went by the school to pick her kids up four girls. I did not know she had this many children the ages are 9,9,8, and 7, and two boys I latter found out that are 22 and 25 that live in other states. Now this was a situation that I was unexpectently unaware of what I was getting myself into. So some time went by maybe a month and we started to get closer to one another. It started when she decided to sit right next to me while watching a movie. That went on for a week than I asked the question would you like to start a relationship, and she was like ummmmmmm…. sure. Here we are now dating two months went bye and she started to give me the hint that I should marry her, I was saying that we should give it about 1 year before we start even thinking about that, then she said it should not matter if you love me and I love you then what are we waiting for. I could not anwser. Then we decide to get married March 1, 2009 and it was just me her best friend and her best friends husband and of couse her. I was very happy that she wanted to start a relationship I was on top of the world and our relationship was terrific, it was an act of god so I thought. I did not tell my parents and she did’nt either. The only ones that knew was the four of us and latter I told my sister. Life to me was great and I thought my world was so full and had purpose. We or should I say she took it even futher and she and then I went with it decided to buy a house 2,000 down and 500 dollars a month I thought was a bad ideal and I told her what my feelings were, but she conviced me that this was a gift god had giving to the family so we did bought a house right down the road from her cousin Mike older gentalmen in his early 60′s and he was more then likely kinda gave her a push to buy a house there, good school system and alot of great things to do there. Anyways the move took at least a month and it was totally an unorganized last min hurry up type of move. Nothing was organized before the move she owed this little construction company and we did a remodel job which I have lots of experience in the consrction industry it was time consuming and that ate at our profit. I felt like she manupuliated the customer into going with her ideals her plan and it was latter a bad deal on the customers side the job was left unfished and she when she did work on that place did a shity job, know pride. I knew it was not right and told her that the way that was hanlded was wrong but it was to her way of thinking the customers fault and she got a deal, and after time she latter conviced me enough that I agreed but in the back of my mind did’nt. Back to the move we move in the place was unliveable the place had not been occupied in 2 years, and it was for the most part a wreck. We end up using the profit from that job for the move. We start making the place livable during the moved rather then before that made things crazy. Now I get a job at a factory she stays home with the kids to work on the house by this time the kids were on summer break. So the plan was she stay home with the kids for the summer which she wanted and work on the house while I went to work at a factory which I latter became miserible. Now all of this going on at that time I started to ge